Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Identity Crisis

As youngsters we find it really difficult to answer the question- Who are you? What kind of person do you think you are? What category do you put yourself under?
I'm 16 and am search of my true identity, please come back after 30 years and maybe I'll have an answer by then, hopefully. That's what I tell most of people the who ask me those questions. 
It's not easy. I'm been trying to find some answers of my identity and it's been 16 years worth of searching, adapting and still haven't found any answer. I mean we spend our whole left trying to be ourselves when we haven't even see ourselves with our own eyes, just our reflection. Millions of people, millions of souls, millions of hearts, millions of brains trying to find their true identity. There's bound to be confusion and mistakes which results in someone pretending to be someone their not. Now that's a scary thought. I mean YOLO. You only live once, what the point of it if you waste it by being someone you're not? Why do we live? Isn't the whole point of all this money, hard-work, love, marriage, glamour, hardships etc to make this life worth living? To leave a mark in the world before you become one with the green pastures. 
Identity. That word itself is so ambiguous. It's can take many forms, let it be a fake ID you might have for under aged  drinking or a tag you may hold for working in a company or for your job, or the two types of identity one might have- the nice guy and the bad guy. That man you see at the bus stop- might be a funny, witty and charming boss in his office but a monster at home, a abusive husband. 
So can you really identify yourself? When there are so many temptation, distractions to get you off track from your   much wanted path of right living or so it seems.
How are we as inexperienced teenagers expected to find ourselves if the society we live is like a masked ball. Where everyone hides their true vulnerable self under a false external bravado in hopes of 'fitting in'. 
Who gets to decide how another human 'fits in?' How does anyone have the right to bully, insult and bring another man down for their own ego self boost in this pretence that we live under of this masked society. 
For example- most common topic. Gays and lesbians. How does one's homosexuality even remotely related to them being good or bad? How can people discard such individuals just based on their liking for the same sex. These horrible people mask under the pretence of god and his greatness but forget that god has made us all, and god will love us irrespective of our desires and our personalities. Why should a gay person not have the right to marry the person they love? Or have the same right of marriage as a normal couple? Why should he torture his self and be unhappy for his whole life, trying to 'fit it' in this pretencions life? 
When some people actually have the courage to come out of the closet, this so called society that we live in, asks, almost orders us to abandon and disrespect such people as if they have the plague. It's the society's ways that must be frowned upon; not gays or lesbians who are stuck in their evil web of pretence that this society has made. Even the whole deal with being size zero. The whole idea seems almost too absurd to be true. Beauty doesn't have a number. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, and the insecurities we have and the scars we carry thought our lives is a result of this diabolic society that man has created. No girl is ugly, it's the society which is truly ugly. 
So finding ones' true self is a hard journey, and I wish all that my readers find what their looking for, and beware of this society. Nobody is allowed to make you feel inferior, nobody. Believe in yourself an your already halfway there. Follow your heart; always help others. I've been taught by my parents to always help people, it's the best damn feeling in the world. God compensates for your good work in some way or the other in life. So maybe try not too hard to fit in, cause everyone is born to stand out in their own unique ways. 
Identity crisis or not my friends. Be a good human being and that's all you will ever need in this life to etch your mark in this world. For a man's deed are always remembered by, even long after he is gone.